Annoyances

I'm trying to really work on being more laid back. Letting things slide more so I'm not so stressed everyday. Some days I'm good. Some days I struggle. It's really hard to just be like "I'm NOT going to be like this anymore!" and then be done with everything. It's MUCH easier said than done.

I have a few "friends" who just don't get it. I have come to the point, as a person, to stop bending backwards for people just to make them happy. Why should I? To be the better person? I HAVE been the better person this whole time. I have shown effort in friendships. I have gone above and beyond doing favors left and right. But what do I get? Absolutely nothing.

In the past few years, actually since we've lived in Florida, I have come to realize who my true friends are. That's a big deal. I would rather have 5 best friends than know 30 people and only talk to 6 or 7 of them on a daily basis. These "friends" I speak of have really changed in the past 6 months. In ways good, in other ways, not so good. I have been good friends with both of these girls for a really long time. Recently, I feel I barely know them anymore. They are just so consumed in each other and with their boyfriends it's like I (and Rob of course) fell off the face of the earth to them. I can barely get ahold of them, and one of them won't even return my phone calls let alone a freakin' text! It's rude and very disrespectful. I am to the point where I don't care anymore. I am done trying to run after them. Plus, she owes us money and well, lets just say that she hasn't paid up yet and is trying everything in her power to avoid it at all costs. She has money to fly down to Florida for a week AND take off work for a week, but can't cough up $300. Riiight.. Lets see her get away with that.

Lately, I feel like I am sometimes put on the spot when it comes to making plans. For instance, this guy that went to BSU with Rob (not Shorty)wants to get together. That's totally cool! I don't care! He actually was one of the few I actually LIKED there! Rob has been telling these people though to IM me (which I'm not complaining) and basically make the decision whether or not we'll hang out. Kinda puts me on the spot like it's MY decision, so even if I didn't want to hang out, I have to anyway. Maybe I'm looking into it a little. Probably. Maybe it's because I'm in a mood today. Though I will say, I'm not so keen on having a freakin' BSU reunion... Have I already mentioned there were only a few people I actually liked there? Yeah.. so with that said, I really do want to meet Eric and his new girlfriend Joanna. Eric was always nice to me and always made me feel part of the group when I came to visit Rob at Ball State. So, I'm down for hanging out. Just not sure if it should be this weekend or not due to other plans that were kinda already made. I love my Rob.. but he can plan way too much sometimes!

Got invited from Drew and Leah to play Rockband at Leah's sisters house tonight. I'd love to play Rockband with Drew and Leah..just not at her sisters house.. Sorry!!!!!!!! Not gonna happen! Too weird awkward and that's just asking too much I think. Just waiting for me to get that job so we can get it with the extra income we bring home!! I'm crossing my fingers hoping for a call, an interview, and a call letting me know I have the job! I'll update later

Back in Action

As you all know, we moved back up to Indy about a month ago. We arrived the end of March and moved in on the coldest day. At least it's been the coldest day so far since we've been back. We didn't tell anybody we were moving up. I mean everyone knew we would be moving back up, just didn't know when exactly b/c we didn't tell them! It was fun. The first night we were in town, we surprised Drew and Leah. Only b/c we're 10 minutes away from each other. So, it wasn't like we had to drive a ways to surprise them, otherwise we would have waited. We went over to their house and they were completely shocked. Had NO idea. It was priceless. Of course the next day we surprised Rob's mom and Jon, and his dad and Susan. It was fun. Eventually, we went up to Bloomington with Kyle (after surprising him first) and surprised Megan. It was really just worth it all.

Now it's May, and I am still jobless. It's been rough. Money is tight. I'm just frustrated about a lot of things. Everything is just so overwhelming. I feel like I'm expected to do everything b/c I don't have a job and b/c I have all this time. I actually do a lot around here. I try to get so much done during the day, but it just seems at the end of the day, there is more for ME to do. Granted, Rob works all day yes, so he needs his time to unwind.. Just feels like it's most of the evening some days. Then you know it, it's 11:30 and it's time for bed. Literally. Nothing else. Wake up at 6:45 and do it all over again. It's just wearing me down.

Anyway, in the meantime, I am still in the process of finding a job. I have had interviews, so it's obvious I have the experience companies want. Right now, it's just a waiting process. Just waiting on a call. I am still looking also. I look everyday. It's just really dry right now. I figured I would be unemployed for a few months. It's only a matter of time when I find something. I just have to keep a positive attitude about everything.

Rob had a job at EDS downtown that he hated so much. He was there for 3 weeks, then had a job offer at a company over at Keystone at the Crossing he interviewed for. He accepted the job and his first day to start was yesterday. So far, he hasn't had any complaints and really likes the job. There are so many perks he gets, and we're getting insurance through his company. It's soo nice to have insurance again. I'm just glad he's happy now.

On a better note, we've been hanging out a TON with our friends and family. It's just so nice to be back. I never thought I would say I'm happy to be back in Indy. We still have to take our drivers test and get our license so we're "legal". Yeah..we haven't done that yet! Whoops! We honestly haven't had the money! Money sucks right now BAD. It will get better.

It's been so long since I've updated. We haven't given this blog to anybody yet, so that is one reason why we don't update much. That and we've just been way too busy. Especially with the whole moving process and such. It's just been crazy. Hopefully, it will slow down soon. I just want our routine back. I miss it. In the meantime, I have nothing really to update about. Who knows when I'll update next. Hopefully soon!