Annoyances

I'm trying to really work on being more laid back. Letting things slide more so I'm not so stressed everyday. Some days I'm good. Some days I struggle. It's really hard to just be like "I'm NOT going to be like this anymore!" and then be done with everything. It's MUCH easier said than done.

I have a few "friends" who just don't get it. I have come to the point, as a person, to stop bending backwards for people just to make them happy. Why should I? To be the better person? I HAVE been the better person this whole time. I have shown effort in friendships. I have gone above and beyond doing favors left and right. But what do I get? Absolutely nothing.

In the past few years, actually since we've lived in Florida, I have come to realize who my true friends are. That's a big deal. I would rather have 5 best friends than know 30 people and only talk to 6 or 7 of them on a daily basis. These "friends" I speak of have really changed in the past 6 months. In ways good, in other ways, not so good. I have been good friends with both of these girls for a really long time. Recently, I feel I barely know them anymore. They are just so consumed in each other and with their boyfriends it's like I (and Rob of course) fell off the face of the earth to them. I can barely get ahold of them, and one of them won't even return my phone calls let alone a freakin' text! It's rude and very disrespectful. I am to the point where I don't care anymore. I am done trying to run after them. Plus, she owes us money and well, lets just say that she hasn't paid up yet and is trying everything in her power to avoid it at all costs. She has money to fly down to Florida for a week AND take off work for a week, but can't cough up $300. Riiight.. Lets see her get away with that.

Lately, I feel like I am sometimes put on the spot when it comes to making plans. For instance, this guy that went to BSU with Rob (not Shorty)wants to get together. That's totally cool! I don't care! He actually was one of the few I actually LIKED there! Rob has been telling these people though to IM me (which I'm not complaining) and basically make the decision whether or not we'll hang out. Kinda puts me on the spot like it's MY decision, so even if I didn't want to hang out, I have to anyway. Maybe I'm looking into it a little. Probably. Maybe it's because I'm in a mood today. Though I will say, I'm not so keen on having a freakin' BSU reunion... Have I already mentioned there were only a few people I actually liked there? Yeah.. so with that said, I really do want to meet Eric and his new girlfriend Joanna. Eric was always nice to me and always made me feel part of the group when I came to visit Rob at Ball State. So, I'm down for hanging out. Just not sure if it should be this weekend or not due to other plans that were kinda already made. I love my Rob.. but he can plan way too much sometimes!

Got invited from Drew and Leah to play Rockband at Leah's sisters house tonight. I'd love to play Rockband with Drew and Leah..just not at her sisters house.. Sorry!!!!!!!! Not gonna happen! Too weird awkward and that's just asking too much I think. Just waiting for me to get that job so we can get it with the extra income we bring home!! I'm crossing my fingers hoping for a call, an interview, and a call letting me know I have the job! I'll update later