Too much

I'm tired of trying to keep up with myself. No matter how I hard I try it's not good enough. Whether it's work related or trying to keep good friendships. Maybe Florida is just beating me so far down, I'm having a hard time trying to stay up. I feel depressed, then happy. Then I want to cry, and then I get pissed. Like with my boss. My boss is so condescending I hate it. Maybe I hate him. Then sometimes I like him. Right now, I don't like him. It's too much.

Why do I feel like I'm the only one who tries to so hard for a good friendship? When a best friend moves away then you don't hear from her for weeks, and all you do is call and call and then get the voice mail, how would that make you feel? When you try to keep in touch with another friend, (or so you thought you were friends), but all they care about is your husband, wouldn't that piss you off? Wouldn't you just want to stop trying and say screw her? Not me I guess. I, for some reason, have to keep trying and keep getting rejected.

I guess I just wish everyone treated everybody equally. I know that will never happen though. People now a days, are just so one-sided and all about themselves,it makes me sick. I think Florida has helped me open my eyes to those kinds of people and when I look back to all of the people I know, some of them are just like that and will always be that way.
*shrugs*
..you realize who your true friends really are....That's what really matters in the end.